One step back today - lots of pain so stayed in bed most of the day. I have been gradually progressing so far so today was a bit of a rude shock. I was so frustrated and annoyed with trying to work out the remote control and really just wanted to rip this implant out of me. Hopefully tomorrow will feel much better!
Recovering from surgery I have been thinking a lot about dependence/independence. Society rewards us for being independent – from the time we are born we start off completely dependent on our parents for life and sustenance. As we grow older we are expected to develop our independence – start school, make friends, begin a life separate from our parents, go to uni, get our first ‘real’ job, have a boyfriend, get married and the cycle goes on. We spend our whole lives striving for independence, yet chronic pain forces you to become dependent – on your partner, your family, your friends, your work mates. It’s hard to admit you need help when you’re thirty – it’s partly pride and partly the fact that I know I am continually asking. I don’t want to be relying on friends and family all the time but I don’t have a choice. Over the past five years I have come to some acceptance with this but I continue to rail against it every day and wish there was more I could do myself.
BTW I charged myself for the first time this week. It didn't work completely to plan but it was seriously weird trying it!!
Recovering from surgery I have been thinking a lot about dependence/independence. Society rewards us for being independent – from the time we are born we start off completely dependent on our parents for life and sustenance. As we grow older we are expected to develop our independence – start school, make friends, begin a life separate from our parents, go to uni, get our first ‘real’ job, have a boyfriend, get married and the cycle goes on. We spend our whole lives striving for independence, yet chronic pain forces you to become dependent – on your partner, your family, your friends, your work mates. It’s hard to admit you need help when you’re thirty – it’s partly pride and partly the fact that I know I am continually asking. I don’t want to be relying on friends and family all the time but I don’t have a choice. Over the past five years I have come to some acceptance with this but I continue to rail against it every day and wish there was more I could do myself.
BTW I charged myself for the first time this week. It didn't work completely to plan but it was seriously weird trying it!!
Me in my sexy hospital outfit!
Trying to put on socks with my "claw"!
Oh how I wish I could give you a gentle hug my darling Amy. Please be reminded it is early days and you are going to take a few tiny steps backward and giant steps forward. Thank you for the photo's as well. Not being there to see you, it helps us a little to 'see' what you're going through. Rog and I have decided we need a claw!! We're having a quiet Sunday afternoon after Rog spoke at Crossroads and we've had a busy weekend of entertaining! Our prayers and thoughts are always with you and Tim. Much love, Gaynor and Roger xo xo xo xo
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