Not sure if any of you have tried out a punching bag before, but over the last week I have seriously considered buying one! They seem such a great way to vent things, although being a girl I'm sure I would just come away with a bruised hand instead. I have been told a sleeping bag can also do the job - I just resorted to walking round our home screaming and punching a few pillows in frustration! Obviously not when my lovely husband was home but it did help to physically get my emotions out.
Since receiving the news of possibly more surgery, I spent 4 days in floods of tears, sadness and exhaustion with a burning mass of frustration inside me that often threatened to lash out at anything, people included. I have thankfully passed through that now and have been blessed with God's "peace that passes all understanding." It is an amazing feeling to be calm and know that if surgery is required, I will be OK. I'm not sure how long this sense will last but at the moment I am content to wait and see what the next couple of weeks bring. I can always buy that punching bag if required down the track...
Praying hard for you dear Amy. Thanks for this post. I just can't imagine what you must be going through, I can only pray. I wonder if the cream is working. It doesn't sound like it. Do keep us posted. I love your blog - A big FAN.
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Amy, one of the things you know that I really respect about you and your blog is that you are so honest about your feelings, fears, frustrations and anxieties. It takes courage to put it all out there without attempting to gloss over those 'punching bag' moments. You are a special and very real woman. You know that we pray for you as you continue on this journey of ups and downs. Thank you for the privilege of letting us share in your thoughts and struggles. It was lovely to be able to share some time together in my time over in Melbourne. I really appreciated the chance to chat together over lunch. All my love, Cheryl
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